Don't like it? Change it!

There are changes that need to be made but if I add those changes to the list if things I have to get done it just makes it longer and to tell you the truth that shit will have to just wait on the back end cause I'm busy.... Well wait... What if those changes could make this whole thing run a lot smoother? I guess it's something to consider... But they damn sure better be convenient changes! Wait, is there a such thing? 

Sadly no, change is inconvenient in its timing and sure enough painful when you are this busy living. Well living requires change and today I realized that. My commute takes so long that I feel like I spend my whole day commuting... Seems like a space for change, my life lacks balance and as a result I have zero patience thats the reality but the truth I give it is "the people in my life get on my damn nerves"... 

The list goes on and on... The one thing I notice is I will not now or ever be able to avoid change. It's necessary and in this moment I choose to stop seeing it as an inconvenient task but as a prescription for the pain and suffering... I will transition today from just being alive to do life's business... To living to do life's work..truth of the matter being I know my life's work but have been too busy not changing to get to it... Change is hard, realizing it needs to take place is the harder part, I mean after all are you saying the way I've been doing things doesn't work?! 

Lol I have to laugh at myself cause I knw damn well it hasn't. But no longer can I blame anything but fear that must die. There needs to be a refocus and a change... A challenge I will call it because change is such an intimidating word... I challenge myself to walk into healing at my own hands, be motivated by my own mind and be changed by it's renewing. I further challenge myself to share the journey to be both accountable as a part of my life's work and that is to motivate, inspire, and build others...